Sunday, July 19, 2009

My Mortality

"I might die right now. "

The thought doesn't stem from any sort of depression, sadness, anger, or woe. The thought is just me facing reality.

I might loose control of my car... and die.
I might be struck by lightning... and die.
I might get something caught in my throat... and die.
I might be trampled by a herd of cows... and die.
I might just be in the wrong place at the wrong time... and die.

Whenever I start thinking about my mortality, I ask myself: "Would I be o.k. if I died right now?"

I don't mean this in a literal sense; my body would be dead and I wouldn't have the rest of my life to live. So no, obviously I would not be o.k.

The question is more of a check in: "Am I content with my life up until now?"

When the answer is "yes" my muscles relax and all worries just kinda melt away. I take a second to smile at death. Sometimes I even whisper "bring it on."

He hasn't so far.

1 comment:

  1. or you could fall off the couch and die!,
    i often wonder the same thing. but i have a different answer, i am content with life right now. if i died i would not be angered at all. hopefully i did not just jinks myself.
    keep it up scotty your blog rocks!